Pre-K Paranoia

November 4, 2011

Confession: I’m freaking out about kindergarten. Which starts in about 305 days. “Why?” you ask. Well, in a sentence, I’m afraid they’re going to ruin my Princess. She’s so sweet, innocent and happy. A part of me seriously wants to put her in a bubble and keep her this way. She’s helpful, kind, and loving. She gets excited about everything- whether it’s a trip to the grocery store or a birthday celebration. She rarely whines, always smiles, eats her veggies, and loves learning. Right now she picks friends based on who she likes, sings out loud, and doesn’t think about being cool, boys, or when to talk.

And I’m scared that kindergarten is going to ruin everything.

Well, not kindergarten itself. Elementary school. School in general. Getting older. I don’t know that we’re she’s I’m ready for the questions and topics that are going to come up in school. I don’t want her to learn about sex. Or that there isn’t a Santa Claus. Or to not be an enthusiastic learner because the boys don’t think it’s cool. Or to be teased about being less than agile. I am so scared of her losing her sparkle that it brings me to tears.

We’re unsure as to what school we’re going to be sending Princess to next year. We’re going to be putting our house on the market this spring in hopes of moving closer to downtown Austin. We’ve heard great things about the school in the neighborhood we want to move to, but I’m worried about budget cuts and my baby getting lost in a class of 25 kids. We’re also looking at a charter school that would be a nightmare commute from our current house, but ok from the new neighborhood. I’ve heard mixed things about the school in this neighborhood, and there’s something about the vibe that I get that doesn’t sit well with me.

So maybe the uncertainty is part of the problem. Or maybe it’s knowing that growing up is going to change her. I’m so scared that the wrong choice by us as parents is going to send her on a path to be a druggie under some stair case. I do have a rational side that knows that having strong parental figures who are active listeners and who guide her throughout her life will help her make good decisions and hopefully raise her to be a successful, happy adult. I can’t help but to worry about her peers, those “bad” kids, and just whatever influences show her a world that I want to shield her from a little bit longer. A bubble is seriously not out of the question.

How did you wrap your head around kindergarten. How do I refrain from over thinking this huge moment in our family’s history?

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Anna August 2, 2012 at 11:48 am

My princess starts Kindergarten next month. I came to your site because I just googled, “freaking out about kindergarten.” I’m having all of the same feelings you are. I am so worried about my girl being influenced (in a bad way) by elementary school. Have you found anything that’s helped? My sister (mother of 8) keeps reassuring me that it will be okay, that Lu will love school and then I will love it. I am terrified. How are you coping?

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weekday solo mommy August 8, 2012 at 4:52 pm

Hi Anna!

Thanks for your comment- I’m still freaking out, and it brings tears to my eyes every time I think about kindergarten (in 2.5 weeks!!!). Something that really helped me last week was that I asked Princess’ camp counselor how she does with other girls, and she told me that P makes great choices and follows her own path, not just what her friends are doing. I’m keeping my fingers crossed that her confident independence continues, and that she will talk to me about things that are bothering her so that I can help her make good choices. Bottom line- this parenting stuff is hard!!

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Betty August 21, 2012 at 6:23 am

The same thing happend to me! Abby was fine in Pre-k, never cried , but Kinder was a drenfieft story. She cried every morning and it would break my heart:( With Abby it was the all day schedule. In pre-k she was half day, so that had a big impact on her. But she got over it after like 2 weeks. So hang in there! And if bribing works, then use whatever you can.

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weekday solo mommy August 27, 2012 at 12:54 am

Thanks, Betty!

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